Ugh! Why do I keep looking up stuff on this celebrity I hate!?

I KNOW I'm jealous of her (I know, it's a horrible and disgusting trait). I want the same nice things she has and the attention she gets but it's not that big of an issue. The REAL issue is I look up stuff online about her (like the latest news about her and what's her next movie) from time to time like once a month or every couple of months. BUT I can't STAND this B*TCH! I enjoy her misfortunes and laugh a little inside when bad things happen to or are said about her. What's WRONG with me? O.o I feel some freak. This isn't bad enough to point where I need to seek help or anything. I just wanna know if this happens to anyone else, if this is normal, has anyone ever heard of this, and is this really as weird as it sounds? O.o